45 Weeks Down…Day 322
Apparently I get bit whenever I get too happy or excited about something. Since last Friday i’ve had one of the most stressful weeks i’ve had this whole deployment. I just have way too much on my plate right now and things keep coming up to make everything worse. I am so ready to be done with school, my work life has been insane, i’m impatient for ryan to get here and all of these trips have been exhausting me! Phew!
I’m trying so hard to stay positive for Ryan and to be the good little Army fiancee!! However, that is really hard to do sometimes. How come we’re so close that I can actually see the finish line, yet the stress seems like it’s continuing to escalate? I feel like I should be carefree because my soldier is coming home soon! We should be on the downward spiral, but the stress keeps mounting. I just hope I hit the peak pretty soon, because I just don’t know how much more I can take.
On a positive, he has been so supportive and I can’t believe what an amazing man God has blessed me with. I don’t know how he has so much strength for both of us sometimes, but he manages…even when i’m stressed and all emotional. LoL It’s so amazing to have someone to lean on when life becomes so overwhelming. All of these years i’ve been the “strong/independent/I don’t need a man” woman, and everyone told me marriage and having someone wasn’t what it was cracked up to be. I know i’m not married yet and i’m not naive enough to think that there won’t be bumps along the way, but i’m here to tell you that having him is MUCH better than that single life. It isso nice to carry the load with another person. When God puts two people together, He blesses it. How could it not be wonderful?
Mom had me pray Psalm 35 the other day for a situation that I was facing and I am going to try to keep praying that for these situations. I know that I have God on my side and no matter what it’ll all be over in a few weeks, but sometimes it’s hard to keep reminding yourself of that fact. I know God has my best interests at heart and I will trust Him (with my puny human mind) to straighten these problems out in His time. I guess I need to pray for strength too..